Scene as I'm exiting the polls:
Election Official: YOU'RE OLD ENOUGH TO VOTE?!
Me: Yes...
Election Official: You look WAY too young.
Me: Nope...can I have my sticker?
Election Official: Sorry for being rude.
Love my life.
11.04.2008
11.03.2008
Went to my parents on Saturday expecting a somewhat normal family night.
Found out my Grandpa who has suffered from Alzheimer's for a number of years isn't doing to well and is probably going to die soon.
How soon is soon?
They didn't know.
Two days later and my mother and her mother haven't left his bed. I called to get information and all I heard was gasping and yelling in the background. Apparently he's in a lot of pain but he made it through last night and is a little more comfortable.
I'm upset because I'm not upset. He's been gone for three years but at least his body was still here...and now it's not going to be and I can't find it in me to cry. The man practically raised me and I can't shed one tear...how fucked up does that make me?
I wanted to go see him but my Mom said it would be too upsetting. He's almost six feet tall and currently weighs about eighty pounds because he's forgotten how to swallow. I just want to see him and be upset by it and cry and cry. I can't.
All I can hear is him singing me "I know an old lady who swallowed a fly" over and over. I can't, however, remember much else. Has it really been that long since I looked him in the eye and watched his papery skin crinkle around it as he smiled? Apparently so....I have pictures of him all over my fridge and around the apartment...but it isn't the same.
He has eyes that are so sparkly it always looks like he's crying. And I can't even cry one tear for him.
What is WRONG with me?!
I just want him back. I'll even take the version of him with moderate Alzheimer's. Occasionally mixing up words, getting frustrated for no reason, and repeating himself...it's all tolerated because at least he knew who we were and he could speak. He doesn't even look like himself or at least he didn't the last time I saw him.
It's not fair that this disease took his mind..but its SUPER unfair that it's taking his body too.
I. just. want. to. cry.
Found out my Grandpa who has suffered from Alzheimer's for a number of years isn't doing to well and is probably going to die soon.
How soon is soon?
They didn't know.
Two days later and my mother and her mother haven't left his bed. I called to get information and all I heard was gasping and yelling in the background. Apparently he's in a lot of pain but he made it through last night and is a little more comfortable.
I'm upset because I'm not upset. He's been gone for three years but at least his body was still here...and now it's not going to be and I can't find it in me to cry. The man practically raised me and I can't shed one tear...how fucked up does that make me?
I wanted to go see him but my Mom said it would be too upsetting. He's almost six feet tall and currently weighs about eighty pounds because he's forgotten how to swallow. I just want to see him and be upset by it and cry and cry. I can't.
All I can hear is him singing me "I know an old lady who swallowed a fly" over and over. I can't, however, remember much else. Has it really been that long since I looked him in the eye and watched his papery skin crinkle around it as he smiled? Apparently so....I have pictures of him all over my fridge and around the apartment...but it isn't the same.
He has eyes that are so sparkly it always looks like he's crying. And I can't even cry one tear for him.
What is WRONG with me?!
I just want him back. I'll even take the version of him with moderate Alzheimer's. Occasionally mixing up words, getting frustrated for no reason, and repeating himself...it's all tolerated because at least he knew who we were and he could speak. He doesn't even look like himself or at least he didn't the last time I saw him.
It's not fair that this disease took his mind..but its SUPER unfair that it's taking his body too.
I. just. want. to. cry.
10.28.2008
Hello all!
Due to unfortunate circumstances, Kaylyn has to move out this month...SO we're looking for a new roommate. Luckily, I'm not friends with anyone creepy on here so if we're friends...you qualify.
It's a HUGE 2 bedroom with 1 bathroom. Completely furnished (minus the 2nd bedroom of course) Your room would be about 13 x 10 which is a decent size for 1 person and cozy for two.
You MUST be okay with our kitten Dexter, and dog Zeppy...and you're welcome to bring a cat/dog of your own.
We have Comcast Digital Cable with a DVR and HBO in the living room, and we're getting the bedrooms set up for regular cable (if you want digital in your room its $10 extra a month due to Comcast)
Rent & utilities are always split 3 ways. So your rent is $345 a month plus utilities so about $400 a month.
You must pay 1/3 of the security deposit plus first months rent upon move in.
You will be living with myself, and my boyfriend. You're not required to be best friends with us or even like us that much, just please pay your shit on time!
Feel free to pass this one to anyone you know who may be looking for a new place.
ps- the apartment is in cockeysville
Due to unfortunate circumstances, Kaylyn has to move out this month...SO we're looking for a new roommate. Luckily, I'm not friends with anyone creepy on here so if we're friends...you qualify.
It's a HUGE 2 bedroom with 1 bathroom. Completely furnished (minus the 2nd bedroom of course) Your room would be about 13 x 10 which is a decent size for 1 person and cozy for two.
You MUST be okay with our kitten Dexter, and dog Zeppy...and you're welcome to bring a cat/dog of your own.
We have Comcast Digital Cable with a DVR and HBO in the living room, and we're getting the bedrooms set up for regular cable (if you want digital in your room its $10 extra a month due to Comcast)
Rent & utilities are always split 3 ways. So your rent is $345 a month plus utilities so about $400 a month.
You must pay 1/3 of the security deposit plus first months rent upon move in.
You will be living with myself, and my boyfriend. You're not required to be best friends with us or even like us that much, just please pay your shit on time!
Feel free to pass this one to anyone you know who may be looking for a new place.
ps- the apartment is in cockeysville
10.21.2008
Jen Leach is a dumb cunt.
IF YOU'RE GOING TO GET A POEM MAKE SURE YOU COPY IT CORRECTLY FROM THE ORIGINAL WORK.....YOU STUPID BITCH
I don't care that she got the same thing I did...its that she THINKS she got the same thing I did (and the fact that its her)
The poem...when correctly written is:
"i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)"
notice the parenthesis and the lower case....yea... you're a dumb ugly bitch...that makes me so mad and I bet EE is pissed too!
10.20.2008
I had two papers due today. One in EMF (a class I just took an exam in...) and one for English.
After almost dying on the highway yesterday, and experiencing like 45 seconds of dead air as I'm listening to my station on the way home from work (time that I was responsible for), I was obviously too frazzled to put together any concrete thoughts for both papers.
I get to EMF this morning and he's like...oh since we just had the exam, I'm moving the paper due date to Wednesday. WHAT THE HELL!?
So I basically did the WRONG paper that was due today.
I wrote my EMF paper before the travesties on the highway so I could turn it in today.
I should have written my English paper...fuck fuck fuckity fuck fuck fuck.
UGH! I'm skipping english today because I'm too embarrassed to not have a paper. It only goes down 1/3 a grade per day it's late so if I email it tonight it shouldn't be that bad. Plus its only 3 pages....
I have a meeting with my advisor in an hour to pick my next classes which I'm kind of looking forward too! It should be fun...I'm also gonna ask for classes NOT so early in the morning.
In other news, I cut my bangs into a straight asian hair cut:
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